Cornerstone Christian Counselling Centre

by Janet Howden, Therapist

God's Thoughts on the Weaker Members

This article was written by a dissociative client who has been struggling for some time with the concept of two distinct and conflicting sides of her personality. There was 'the strong side' of her inner system, and there was 'the pain side'. Each side was comprised of a number of 'parts.'

In November (2001), Jesus showed her something very interesting from I Corinthians 12 (NIV), and this was very powerful for her. Specifically verses: 12; 12, 18, 22-26. Were especially meaningful for her.

Subsequently she had the following dialogue with Jesus, as she spoke from the perspective of her 'the strong side.'

Dear Jesus; I think we need help.
On our side we feel completely undone.

For so long we have held to the belief that we were superior in strength, in intellect, and we were better than the pain side.

We have judged that side and condemned them [those parts]. We thought that. once healing came. they would move over to our side and they would become strong like we have been all these years.

Now you are showing us that your heart towards these "weaker" ones is very different than our response to them.
You say that the weaker are indispensable!
You say that the ones we think are less honourable are to be treated with special honour.
You say that the parts that are unpresentable are to be treated with special modesty.
You say that the parts who lack honour you give them greater honour.

God all that you say here is so contrary to who I am, to what this side has felt, has expressed and has given out to the "pain side".
I have felt the pain side was dispensable.
I have felt that the pain side deserved no honour at all.
I have felt that the pain side has always been upresentable and I have gotten angry and firm with them when thy do present their "stuff" and their "being" to other people.
Now I see in your Word, and I hear from your Spirit that I am not lining up with you.
My feelings and response is contrary to your feelings and response to them.
I want to be 'godly' I want to be lined up with you.

Also Jesus I have always seen the pain side as weak and my side as strong and superior. Yet your spirit is saying to me that in reality the pain side is incredibly strong. The children parts hold such atrocities within their very being. They are not really babies and wimps. They actually contain, hold and store the emotional and physical pain inside of themselves. You say they are not weak, but rather they are very strong.

Jesus, I am sorry and I repent for judging the pain side. I ask you to forgive me. I ask that you will convey this to the pain side. "I want you to tell them personally"

Jesus I see now that they hold such pain that I can not even get with in miles of it! I see that in regards to pain I and my side are the weak ones. Lord Jesus I am undone over all of this? What am I to do?

[The response the client heard from Jesus]
"Each side is strong in different ways. I have created people to be emotional and functional. I designed for the two to dwell together. I desire for a person to flow back and forth into each.

Lord Jesus I can't face the pain, it is too great for me. I run from it. I can't face it.

"You are trying to go there in your own strength. Humanity was never meant to go there on their own. They are meant to go there with me. I long to walk beside you and the pain side. With me the two sides can co-exist in unity honouring one another, preferring one another. I desire for you to operate out of both, balancing both to be complete and whole.

Lord Jesus this seems easy as you speak yet so hard to do.

Rest in me now. Don't try to 'make it happen'. Let my spirit do the work. Walk with me now and rest in my love, my peace, my grace, and my mercy. I am in charge of your journey. You are right on track. Rest in me!

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